I hate to admit it, but in the past couple of days, and even months, I’ve been scared.
Don’t get me wrong, I am beyond excited to spend a year in July at the Village of Hope, Kenya – I’m excited to start something new, live in a new place, meet new friends, and spend time building relationships with the staff, teachers and children at the Village of Hope. I’m thrilled to be working alongside amazing people who have devoted their lives to educating and caring for orphans. But, with all of that excitement, comes fear as well. Fear of the unknown. Fear of a brand new place, new culture, new everything!
It’s funny how God works. I had chosen Romans 8:28 to meditate on in the last couple of weeks.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Since choosing that verse to mediate on, I see it everywhere. In the Bible lessons I’ve been teaching to my grade 3 class, in sermons, devotionals, and funny enough – today, in a book that my class has been reading for their novel study. What are the chances? God’s trying to teach me something.
He is good, His ways are good, and everything will work out the way He has intended. My job? To trust in Him, seek Him daily and follow His leading.
This past summer while in Zambia, I was reminded that God is my El Shaddai – the Almighty One who is more than enough. More than enough. Those words don’t come easy. They are hard to believe sometimes – most of the time, actually. It’s my choice to focus on His goodness, to remind myself daily that He is more than enough, and He is working everything together for good.
So, maybe it is ok to admit that I’m scared. It pushes me to trust God more, seek Him more, and remind myself that I’m not in this alone. In times like this I recall to mind that His grace is sufficient for me. His power is made present in my weakness. With that, I know I can follow His perfect leading because it is only in His presence where I will find fullness of joy.